At what age does one stop pretending that those few extra pounds really do bug the shit out of you?
I have realized, for me its RIGHT THE FUCK NOW! I mean really who am I kidding, noone, that's who. If I where the size I should be, everyone would want to be like me, instead of me wishing I was like them. I had to go up one more size the last time I bought slacks for work. Let me tell you, I went home so pissed off, I ate everything I could for a week. YEAH, that really showed me. What a disgusting circle. Emotional eater that's me.
To be honest, its not that I hate my body. I just hate how I feel about my body. I already have and I quote, "huge boobs". However, in the last few years, I have added stomach and thighs to go along with it. Let's face it, i need to lose about 60lbs, that's right I said 60.
My biggest problem with my weight gain, is I am setting an unhealthy example for my 13yr old daughter. She deserves BETTER! So here we go ladies and gents. I will start today. I weighed this morning and que the dunt dunt dunt music. I weigh 214lbs
SUCKS THE BIG ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have a new workout plan and eating healthier plan, so I will let y'all know how it goes!
Later Gator!
Monday, April 30, 2012
Friday, April 27, 2012
Oh and I will have a great weekend!
Kids have tons going on this weekend, so lots to look forward to. Fastpitch and football!
Love to everyone...hopeful I will be able to post a little this wekend to.
Later tators.
Love to everyone...hopeful I will be able to post a little this wekend to.
Later tators.
And Another Thing!
When did I become this crazy lady for him to punch all the time....really!
He gets to tell me what to do? I don't think so! Kinda tired of his voice right now and can not stand his face.
He gets to tell me what to do? I don't think so! Kinda tired of his voice right now and can not stand his face.
17years-Can I get a Rant for this raven lunatic?
Today is the first day of my Blog.....I told myself I wouldn't do this, but fuck it!
I AM ANGRY!!!!!
I just had lunch with the Ex and let me tell you, every time I talk to him these days it becomes abundantly apparent why he is my EX!
Our history is long and complicated now. I will give you a little taste today and if you cant help yourself you'll come back and read the rest at later dates.
In the last 12 mths, I have found out, not been told the truth. We were married for 14yrs and he had an affair for the last 5. He had a child with this women, who yes was every aware of his wife and 2 kids at home. None the less they continued their crappy relationship and as far as I know he still tells her he loves her, when clearly he doesn't even know how. Any who, we went to lunch together today. Things where fine at first, then we started to discuss what future plans we have that concern our children. Mine being College. As I am telling him what I know so far, i.e. schedules and such, he starts in. AND I QUOTE, Him:your a fucking idiot, how can you take a class and not be home for the kids, (classes are M-Th 6-8.) Me: Well that's what we are talking about here. You have them on Mon and Tues nights as is, I will need to see about Wed/Thurs. (please keep in mind my children are 13 & 14 and my 27yr old brother lives with me) He is telling me that I can not leave our kids alone until 9 at night to go to class. I may also point out, he leaves them to go drinking all the time. But hey, he is in charge you know, always right and never to be questioned.
He just makes my blood boil!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
There is so much more but i am getting angrier just sitting here. His favorite line right now, I don't mean to be a DICK but...
Ha, I say Ha, that's exactly what your going for!
I need a few moments
I AM ANGRY!!!!!
I just had lunch with the Ex and let me tell you, every time I talk to him these days it becomes abundantly apparent why he is my EX!
Our history is long and complicated now. I will give you a little taste today and if you cant help yourself you'll come back and read the rest at later dates.
In the last 12 mths, I have found out, not been told the truth. We were married for 14yrs and he had an affair for the last 5. He had a child with this women, who yes was every aware of his wife and 2 kids at home. None the less they continued their crappy relationship and as far as I know he still tells her he loves her, when clearly he doesn't even know how. Any who, we went to lunch together today. Things where fine at first, then we started to discuss what future plans we have that concern our children. Mine being College. As I am telling him what I know so far, i.e. schedules and such, he starts in. AND I QUOTE, Him:your a fucking idiot, how can you take a class and not be home for the kids, (classes are M-Th 6-8.) Me: Well that's what we are talking about here. You have them on Mon and Tues nights as is, I will need to see about Wed/Thurs. (please keep in mind my children are 13 & 14 and my 27yr old brother lives with me) He is telling me that I can not leave our kids alone until 9 at night to go to class. I may also point out, he leaves them to go drinking all the time. But hey, he is in charge you know, always right and never to be questioned.
He just makes my blood boil!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
There is so much more but i am getting angrier just sitting here. His favorite line right now, I don't mean to be a DICK but...
Ha, I say Ha, that's exactly what your going for!
I need a few moments
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