Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Remembering the Past....

I find myself thinking to much.  Really its remembering that the problem.  I have been thru to much, husband who cheated and is now my ex-husband but we see each other all the time, talk everyday several times a day and still have sex.  I'm not seeing anyone else, he however, sees other women.  I recently found out that he was sleeping with a friend of mine for several months.  I first confronted them four months ago and they both got mad and tryed to make me feel bad for even thinking such a thing.  Then they got into it and he admitted it.  She is engaged to be married.  Does everyone cheat?  I don't get it.  I'm no angle either.  When I knew he was cheating I would talk to other men.  I didn't sleep with them, but it was the emotional fix I needed.

Now, I am divorced and wanting to be married.  I can't be married to him thou, we fight to much and even thou I love him, I don't trust him at all.   He also sleeps with the same woman he cheated on me with for 5yrs.  And there are others, women he has worked with and I don't know what else.  Most of them knew he was married with children.  They don't care.  I am so broken from all of this.  I don't know my place and it is killing me. 

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